Can you start again?
Hey yall! I haven't blogged in so long and had no idea that the format/layout/ blah blah blah had completely changed. And I am sooo glad to see that I no longer have to upload pics to photobucket just to have large photos on here. Way to go blogger for saving me time.
Anyway....Hi. I use to know you all so well, but have grown so far behind that I feel like today is my first day of blogging. I'm gonna get you caught up on my life here is a second. I wanted to first share a bit of my heart.
I will never regret putting this blog aside this past year. Going from a single girl with a load of extra time to dating someone really zapped any writing time I had. It was a hard decision and still hard because when I stopped blogging I also stopped reading blogs. And all my dear friends that I had formed friendships with just faded. I think they would all understand but you miss your friends you know. Just not enough hours in the day. And because I stopped writing, I stopped feeling like God was using me. But time and time again He would tell me that "writing is NOT your place right now, this relationship with Shane is top priority". And Father was right. I will never regret stepping away. It freed me up to live and not worry about getting the pics done and getting the post up on time. I got to just live.
And in that was such great freedom.
I have been praying about blogging again. How would I have time, how would I manage being a wife, teacher, study time, and writing time. My parents encouraged me to blog. You all encouraged me to blog and most importantly....Shane said "You have got to write. It's apart of your ministry". All the encouragement was great but I still had NOT HEARD A WORD FROM THE LORD!
That was until today. I was sitting on the couch... that I had pulled right in front of the tv so I could watch the women's beach volleyball.... and finishing writing all my thank you notes. I was writing and started to randomly cry and I could feel my heart pounding so hard. And I knew right away the Lord was about to say something because that always happens right before. And there it was......." It is time to write again. I have work for you to do". I then just started crying more. I went from zero conviction to blog to full holy spirit washing over me conviction. I turned to Shane crying (which i am learning that guys think we are weird because we can cry often hahahhha) and said "It's time to blog again".
I felt this instant joy and excitement in me to share and grow and study and get to know each of you all over again. And I could just explode with joy into a million pieces because I had such an absence of desire and motivation and focus. Within a few hours I already see him setting the guidelines for the future and what He will ask me to share about. I totally think it will be weird now that i'm married hahahahhaha. But so interesting at the same time! I just can't put into words how good it feels to know that He wants to use me again. That He has so much to teach me and He has so much transparency that He is going to require of me.
So the question is...Can you start again? You are so different now and things have changed. Can you restart something? I think anyone one that jumped on the blog train several years ago and then stopped might ask themselves this question. And though i no longer can stand my layout or colors or blog header (and i fully intend to redo it all for a fresh start) I know that there is always room for new beginnings. Always.
This time I am no longer single Carolineintexas but married Carolineinarkansas!!!!!
Mrs. Caroline Hughes Beyer.................now doesn't that make you want to jump up and praise the Lord!!!
A married woman who's heart still beats fast and hungers for the Word of God. A woman that has learned in marriage, so far, of her many faults/selfish thinking and not ashamed to share that God is doing a great work on my heart in so many areas that I was not aware of. His faithfulness as He prunes me and cuts me back is remarkable. As He grows me back in areas I know that He will let me share how He is setting me free. I just cannot wait yall!!!!!!
I will stop talking so serious for now but please pray for me and this new start! I need it so much!
Now for the fun stuff.......I did get married! Can you even believe it????????? I now share a bed with a man.......... is that not totally fun or what!!!!!!!!!!!!!! was that too much to say mom? ha! hahaha. It is soooooo fun and soooo crazy and soooo weird to live with a man! I am in month 2 and we are having a blast learning each others habits and stuff. I drive Shane crazy hahahahahhaha. Heck, i drive myself crazy ha! and I have found that he is mystified at how long it takes me to get ready. Hair, makeup, clothing....I think single guys think girls just wake up looking perfect. hhahha WHATEVER!
Anyway, below are some photos before the wedding. Shane and I chose to do the first look thing. I'm glad we did because we cried like babies ha! He is so sweet. I will tell more details later. It was a great time....stressful before hand...but a great time.
I love this man. He is so funny, interesting, brilliant, and unpredictable, and as he says "a little rough around the edges". We are total opposites and yet the same in so many ways. The most unlikely couple to get married but God has great plans for us. And we both know that He is going to use our back stories and our story together to bring Him great glory and honor. Hope you will come along for the ride.
I love you all. It feels so good to push each one of these keys on the keyboard excited about what the Lord will do!
Father, I can't believe you just changed my heart in a matter of seconds today. I didn't care either way about the blog....I just wanted your blessing. My heart is so open to you. Use me, even my secret hurts or ugly places, to be healed up and to help healing. This blog was never just for fun between me and you. You never let me just make it about me. I thank you for that. If no one was to ever read or return here, I thank you still for giving me a place to share. Thank you. I love you so much. I want to mow your grass, I want to do the hard work. USE ME!
Amen.
Anyway....Hi. I use to know you all so well, but have grown so far behind that I feel like today is my first day of blogging. I'm gonna get you caught up on my life here is a second. I wanted to first share a bit of my heart.
I will never regret putting this blog aside this past year. Going from a single girl with a load of extra time to dating someone really zapped any writing time I had. It was a hard decision and still hard because when I stopped blogging I also stopped reading blogs. And all my dear friends that I had formed friendships with just faded. I think they would all understand but you miss your friends you know. Just not enough hours in the day. And because I stopped writing, I stopped feeling like God was using me. But time and time again He would tell me that "writing is NOT your place right now, this relationship with Shane is top priority". And Father was right. I will never regret stepping away. It freed me up to live and not worry about getting the pics done and getting the post up on time. I got to just live.
And in that was such great freedom.
I have been praying about blogging again. How would I have time, how would I manage being a wife, teacher, study time, and writing time. My parents encouraged me to blog. You all encouraged me to blog and most importantly....Shane said "You have got to write. It's apart of your ministry". All the encouragement was great but I still had NOT HEARD A WORD FROM THE LORD!
That was until today. I was sitting on the couch... that I had pulled right in front of the tv so I could watch the women's beach volleyball.... and finishing writing all my thank you notes. I was writing and started to randomly cry and I could feel my heart pounding so hard. And I knew right away the Lord was about to say something because that always happens right before. And there it was......." It is time to write again. I have work for you to do". I then just started crying more. I went from zero conviction to blog to full holy spirit washing over me conviction. I turned to Shane crying (which i am learning that guys think we are weird because we can cry often hahahhha) and said "It's time to blog again".
I felt this instant joy and excitement in me to share and grow and study and get to know each of you all over again. And I could just explode with joy into a million pieces because I had such an absence of desire and motivation and focus. Within a few hours I already see him setting the guidelines for the future and what He will ask me to share about. I totally think it will be weird now that i'm married hahahahhaha. But so interesting at the same time! I just can't put into words how good it feels to know that He wants to use me again. That He has so much to teach me and He has so much transparency that He is going to require of me.
So the question is...Can you start again? You are so different now and things have changed. Can you restart something? I think anyone one that jumped on the blog train several years ago and then stopped might ask themselves this question. And though i no longer can stand my layout or colors or blog header (and i fully intend to redo it all for a fresh start) I know that there is always room for new beginnings. Always.
This time I am no longer single Carolineintexas but married Carolineinarkansas!!!!!
Mrs. Caroline Hughes Beyer.................now doesn't that make you want to jump up and praise the Lord!!!
A married woman who's heart still beats fast and hungers for the Word of God. A woman that has learned in marriage, so far, of her many faults/selfish thinking and not ashamed to share that God is doing a great work on my heart in so many areas that I was not aware of. His faithfulness as He prunes me and cuts me back is remarkable. As He grows me back in areas I know that He will let me share how He is setting me free. I just cannot wait yall!!!!!!
I will stop talking so serious for now but please pray for me and this new start! I need it so much!
Now for the fun stuff.......I did get married! Can you even believe it????????? I now share a bed with a man.......... is that not totally fun or what!!!!!!!!!!!!!! was that too much to say mom? ha! hahaha. It is soooooo fun and soooo crazy and soooo weird to live with a man! I am in month 2 and we are having a blast learning each others habits and stuff. I drive Shane crazy hahahahahhaha. Heck, i drive myself crazy ha! and I have found that he is mystified at how long it takes me to get ready. Hair, makeup, clothing....I think single guys think girls just wake up looking perfect. hhahha WHATEVER!
Anyway, below are some photos before the wedding. Shane and I chose to do the first look thing. I'm glad we did because we cried like babies ha! He is so sweet. I will tell more details later. It was a great time....stressful before hand...but a great time.
I love you all. It feels so good to push each one of these keys on the keyboard excited about what the Lord will do!
Father, I can't believe you just changed my heart in a matter of seconds today. I didn't care either way about the blog....I just wanted your blessing. My heart is so open to you. Use me, even my secret hurts or ugly places, to be healed up and to help healing. This blog was never just for fun between me and you. You never let me just make it about me. I thank you for that. If no one was to ever read or return here, I thank you still for giving me a place to share. Thank you. I love you so much. I want to mow your grass, I want to do the hard work. USE ME!
Amen.