Pumpkin Love & Crazy Dreams...

Busy...........i wrote on twitter last night that we are in the second 6 weeks of school and it still feels like the crazy first week. I just can't seem to keep up. This group is emotionally draining me but I have committed it to pray and God has been moving a lot. Because I am so tired, I can't bring myself to sit at the computer by the time I get home each day.


On top of all that I have been having crazy dreams. CRAZY DREAMS. Dreams that you are still thinking about as you get back into bed the next night. One was about me getting put with another group while on my trip to Israel because I was being adventurous and had gone off by myself. I was being watched by authorities and seperated. I remember one of the men saying "the US Constitution does not follow you to other countries". I wasn't scared in the dream but I knew I had to be smarter this next time.


This dream came several days after my parents told me "this trip" I could not do my normal thing when I'm another country. I have a history of enjoying a city alone! Tokyo is the largest city in the world with a crazy rail system and yet after I figured it out I was not afraid to go off by myself, even at night. In Beijing, Laura and I got in a taxi cab, alone...not knowing the language or the layout of the city AND in the snow, and went off to enjoy the Silk Market and then the Pearl Market!!! When we think back we are like "WHAT??????? did we really do that". Same thing in Guatemala and Montreal. I just love a good adventure.


I never do stupid things. I am always aware of my surrounding and the Holy Spirit usually speaks boldly if I need to get out or leave a situation.

But after that dream, I will obey my parents fully and stick with my group at all times. Especially when we are in certain cities. The Middle East is much different compared to the Asian culture.

Anywho.....1 crazy "your life might end" dream totally got my attention but then Monday Night happened.



Monday Night's Dream........

I ask my mom to come with me to a routine doctor's check-up and he tells us calmly that not only do I have cancer but advanced terminal cancer.


We sit in shock.


I feel every emotion, every bit of craziness all over me and begin to cry.


As we leave I start battling thoughts of my life ending and the overwhelming sorrow/hope/confusion one might go through when they are dying.


"it's to soon"...."I don't want to say goodbye to my loved ones"..."this can't be happening".


We leave, with the Doctor, to go and tell my dad. We traveled to him by a little fishing boat. We get to the house and I sit in a small green wing back chair and my dad sits in one identical to it beside me.


I begin to tell my dad the news. I can still remember the heavy weight on my heart knowing heaven was ahead of me, knowing I would rather be in heaven anyway, and knowing that I could not say goodbye to my parents all at the same time.


I didn't want to say goodbye.


As I told my dad of the cancer, my neck began to grow larger and larger. I was gasping for breath and before I knew it........it was the next day and I died.


What was so scary about the dream is that I felt what it was like to take that last breath. Crazy I know.


And I woke up crying so hard my pillow was covered with tears and my hair was wet.

And I sat there and just sobbed.


And was scared to death.


I did the only thing you can do and cried out to God. Then I fell back asleep. I woke up the next morning and for a second forgot it had happened. And then I remembered it all and started crying all over again....like when you lose a loved one and that first week, after they are gone, you think it was all just a dream....and then you realize it wasn't.


The dream about did me in. This school year is super hard and different and I am tired. My love tank was empty. While putting my make-up on, that morning, I remembered that i was leaving early from school to go to the dentist and that my parents were headed to the Dallas Arboretum that afternoon. Sent mom a text and before I knew it I had plans to spend the rest of the afternoon with them!!!


And below is proof of a good day. I just needed to get away from school. I just needed fresh air and some time with my parents. It was the best afternoon even with a trip to the dentist involved!!!!! Enjoy the pictures below! God's creation is just breathtaking! I couldn't help but sing "This is the day that the Lord has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it".

Every year the Dallas Arboretum has The Great Pumpkin Festival.....literally thousands of pumpkins of all types everywhere! SO FUN!!!! The sky was so blue and the cool weather made it perfect!

I love this place! Everywhere you turn it is just beautiful....


Every Tues they host "Tot Tuesday" and it was so fun to see all the stay-at-home moms and ALL THEIR STROLLERS! So cute. Many had their babies dressed in their Halloween costumes and taking lots of pictures!

They have areas set up just for pictures...



so we just had to take advantage..

after a crazy night and morning of crying, this was so perfect!

are this huts not sooooo cool!!!!!!

my cute mom!

pumpkins and squash (many types) everywhere you turn

they have face painting for all the kids!!!!! and i mean face painted like a mask! with glitter!!! so cool.

Mom and Dad picked up these yummy wraps so we could eat a late lunch!



They also have story time and sing along time for the kids!






this was my favorite house!!!



AMAZING!

I LOVE THIS PICTURE!!!!!



Me and Mom

Is this not the greatest pic of Dad????? I JUST LOVE IT!

My mom's friend Linda would love all these purple flowers!!!



Owl pick for Faith!









I can't stop posting pictures! I am just so drawn to Fall colors!

As you can see, we had a great time! I drove away feeling like myself again. The good news is that while my work life feels crazy, my personal life is not. If fact, God has been making me study some heavy stuff and I am just enjoying my time with Him. I love growing and having to really dig to find the treasures. Minus the crazy dreams I keep having, even the ones of satan trying to silence me, I am really content these days...right where I am.


This is long but I wanted to update you a little about what is going on. I hope to write some this weekend and I am super excited because I am heading to OKC next weekend to get my friend love tank filled by hanging out with Laura and Daniel! Will be sooooooo fun and lots of pics to share!

I love you. I hate the posts are growing further and further apart. But for whatever reason God is just not interesting in me blogging right now. I hope you are doing ok. Remember that in the midst of chaos, spiritual warfare, bombarding/conflicting teachings of tolerance, persecution..............


GOD IS STILL GOD.

HE IS STILL IN CONTROL.

HIS WORD IS STILL THE ONLY WAY.

HIS WORD IS STILL THE TRUTH.

HIS WORD IS STILL THE LIFE............regardless of what is popular!

He is Freedom!