A rant of sorts....

.....But the giant's calling out
my name and he laughs at me

Reminding me of all the times

I've tried before and failed

The giant keeps on telling me

time and time again

"Boy you'll never win,

you'll never win."

But the voice of truth tells me a different story

the Voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"

and the Voice of truth says

"this is for My glory"

Out of all the voices calling out to me

I will choose to listen and believe

the Voice of truth

I don't have much time to share but this "Facing the Giants" song from Casting Crowns was on this morning as I drove in to work! Something about it just clicked for me as it said......."This is for my glory"......whatever "this " is for me or for you. It is for His glory........and, for me, this song was my second confirmation to the petition I had presented to Him yesterday.

This post won't make sense to somebody that has never been in my shoes....but lately I have been BOMBARDED with emails and conversations about doing a certain online dating service. Shocking I know. For whatever reason people seem to be asking me continuously about joining. Sometimes the topic just comes up in chit chat. Some through emails from people I know and people I don't. It may be silly to you but it has not been silly for me.

You hear it once...you forget it....you hear it 9 times.....you began to think maybe you should do it.

"Is this what you want me to do Lord?"

I mean, I am so ok with doing things, like dating, outside the box if that is what He is calling me to do. Many people have used this service and been very successful. But the more I prayed about it the more God reminded me that satan can use people to direct us in the wrong direction too. I had a low point yesterday afternoon in my quiet time. I realized that this is not a issue of dating or marriage for me but an issue of DO I TRUST GOD?

Do I?

and hears the deal........My singleness bothers others more than me. To be honest I hardly think about it on a normal day till somebody points it out. I don't have days that I can't get out of bed because i am alone............... NO WAY...are you kidding me. I'm alive and not only that I'm living for Christ which means my days are packed with moments that I get to see Him work and move and I get to talk with Him!

Beth Moore said something last week in our week 5 video that I felt expressed the very way I live my life and deal with this one small issue of singleness.....

She said ....." But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint'. Isaiah 40:31.....it says to WAIT UPON THE LORD and He will renew your strength....NOT WAIT UPON the event like a wedding, baby, job, moving away, big house, great vacation, weight loss.....waiting on these things do not bring you FRESH STRENGTH. What they do bring you is a worn out spirit trying to control it all and trying to let the "EVENT" fill you up. Your tired and weak and those are the moments satan pounces on you and you feel defeated"........

I am waiting......and I AM waiting upon the Lord. My strength is new each morning and my faith is steadfast. Others may laugh at me, feel sorry for me, or be confused about why I am still single.....but I will continue to say that MY WAIT IS FOR HIS GLORY! Look friends, my singleness is bringing Father a whole lot of Glory and as long as that is the case then I will continue to Trust His Word and not the word of others.

So for you out there so precious to worry about me meeting a future spouse......I WILL.....in God's time. I move when He tells me to move and I turn when He tells me to turn. I will not do the online dating service because He has not said "go" today...I can not speak for Him for tomorrow or years from now. But today He says "this does not bring me glory". I am will obey what He says.

I do love you for caring that much to offer up suggestions. I do love that you pray for me about my singleness. I do love that you write me and encourage me. I thank you for doing that. It means the world to me but.....I am honestly not looking for solutions, to end my singleness, from man or things of this world. God does everything DIFFERENT and for that I praise Him.

In the mean time I am going to CLING to HIS WORD and HIS TRUTH that says.....

"Truth shall spring up from the earth, and righteousness shall look down from heaven".
Psalm 85: 11

"Teach me Your way, O Lord, that I may walk and live in Your truth; direct and unite my heart [solely, reverently] to fear and honor Your name". Psalm 86: 11

"Behold, You desire truth in the inner being; make me therefore to know wisdom in my inmost heart". Psalm 51: 6

"Rather, let our lives lovingly express truth [in all things, speaking truly, dealing truly, living truly]. Enfolded in love, let us grow up in every way and in all things into Him Who is the Head, [even] Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed One)". Ephesians 4: 15

Jesus said to him, I am the Way and the Truth and the Life; no one comes to the Father except by (through) Me. John 14: 6

And you will know the Truth, and the Truth will set you free. John 8: 32

The works of His hands are [absolute] truth and justice [faithful and right]; and all His decrees and precepts are sure (fixed, established, and trustworthy). Psalm 111: 7

For Your loving-kindness is before my eyes, and I have walked in Your truth [faithfully].
Psalm 26: 3

"Stand therefore [hold your ground], having tightened the belt of truth around your loins and having put on the breastplate of integrity and of moral rectitude and right standing with God". Ephesians 6: 14

Father, I pray this does not offend..... but I will not back down. I will stand my ground because I KNOW that when it is MY TURN that you will not be a second late to reveal to me the man you have made specifically to walk with me. Thank you that every email made me so uncomfortable toward the dating online issue. I praise you that your conviction is sometimes LOUD AND CLEAR! Bless those that pray for me and increase the faith of those that want to tell me what to do. You are my very own voice of truth. I presented my request before you yesterday and by this morning you had confirmed to me, in two different ways, that I must trust in you. Continue to teach me your ways oh Lord and I will WALK IN YOUR TRUTH...and I will not have an undivided heart about whether you will do what you say you will do. I wait only upon you. My strength is from you......none of the other events or things will ever make me truly joyful, truly happy.....that is only from you! Let us watch what advice we give out and let us watch what words we say to others in the "waiting" room of this story you are writing! I love you and thank you that the very moment I even want to think about believing the world, you come to my rescue and plant me on solid ground.......for all other ground is sinking sand! I praise you! amen amen!