A-L-I-V-E
ok so I am at school in class this very moment so this may not make sense as I write and point for which tile a student can glue their project to........but i might explode if I don't document what God did for me last night!
I'm a pretty positive person. I mean, I don't look back on the past and first recall all the wrong done to me.....I tend to just forget people's names or events most of the time and remember the good........which i am thankful for so that it allows me to live in the present and to live free. With that said, when my mind starts to go right and my thoughts become "woe is me" I know I need to call on the Lord before I lock myself up in jail for what I do not have.
Soooooooooooooooooooo last night...late because school is almost over.....I was washing my face and looking at my skin in my SERIOUSLY MAGNIFIED MIRROR when all of the sudden.......OUT OF NOWHERE.....I thought "oh i turn 28 in two months and I am still without...."............
WHAT! I popped my head up so fast to look at myself in the bathroom mirror as though I was about to tell myself to GET A GRIP.......................BUT OUT OF NOWHERE.......as fast as the negative thought popped in my mind.......GOD SPOKE TO MY HEART AS CLEAR AS DAY AND SAID ........"YOU ARE ALIVE!".......
and my heart eased of all anxiousness as fast as the anxiousness had come over me. I repeated the three words three more times.........I AM ALIVE, I AM ALIVE, I AM ALIVE.
You know what...............I believed it. I am alive. I may not have what this world says makes you feel whole or an offspring that will carry on my genes BUT I HAVE A LEGACY. A legacy with following God and I AM ALIVE. I AM FULFILLED IN MY SERVICE TO HIM! I AM FULFILLED IN MY HONOR TO HIM. I refuse to spend my days consumed with what I am currently "without" because MY FATHER HAS GIVEN TO ME IN ABUNDANCE and I would give up the things I want if it meant that I would get to hear more from HIM! Oh He is so wonderful and so loving!
So I just needed to say that to you or just document this for my days that I need to be reminded! I am loving my Addison Road CD and this morning song 2 came on and because I am in class I don't know the title....maybe "All that matters"....not sure but a line she sings says.....
....then followed by the words "He has set us free"! I am free....and alive....and determined to keep my mind of things above. My thoughts on God and His GLORY...not trying to get my own glory. What joy it is to live for the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords!
Father, you speak and it is. You spoke directly to my spirit and the words calmed me on contact. I praise you for being ever present. On guard for me when I don't even see that danger is ahead. What a life you have given me. What joy you have poured into me. I am not without because you pour yourself into those empty places of my heart and make me full! I praise you, I am amazed by you, and I am so grateful that you chose to act quickly on my behalf last night. Oh how it renews me and draws me in! You are everything that I need and I am yours....so use me!
I'm a pretty positive person. I mean, I don't look back on the past and first recall all the wrong done to me.....I tend to just forget people's names or events most of the time and remember the good........which i am thankful for so that it allows me to live in the present and to live free. With that said, when my mind starts to go right and my thoughts become "woe is me" I know I need to call on the Lord before I lock myself up in jail for what I do not have.
Soooooooooooooooooooo last night...late because school is almost over.....I was washing my face and looking at my skin in my SERIOUSLY MAGNIFIED MIRROR when all of the sudden.......OUT OF NOWHERE.....I thought "oh i turn 28 in two months and I am still without...."............
WHAT! I popped my head up so fast to look at myself in the bathroom mirror as though I was about to tell myself to GET A GRIP.......................BUT OUT OF NOWHERE.......as fast as the negative thought popped in my mind.......GOD SPOKE TO MY HEART AS CLEAR AS DAY AND SAID ........"YOU ARE ALIVE!".......
and my heart eased of all anxiousness as fast as the anxiousness had come over me. I repeated the three words three more times.........I AM ALIVE, I AM ALIVE, I AM ALIVE.
You know what...............I believed it. I am alive. I may not have what this world says makes you feel whole or an offspring that will carry on my genes BUT I HAVE A LEGACY. A legacy with following God and I AM ALIVE. I AM FULFILLED IN MY SERVICE TO HIM! I AM FULFILLED IN MY HONOR TO HIM. I refuse to spend my days consumed with what I am currently "without" because MY FATHER HAS GIVEN TO ME IN ABUNDANCE and I would give up the things I want if it meant that I would get to hear more from HIM! Oh He is so wonderful and so loving!
So I just needed to say that to you or just document this for my days that I need to be reminded! I am loving my Addison Road CD and this morning song 2 came on and because I am in class I don't know the title....maybe "All that matters"....not sure but a line she sings says.....
But this shallow world is no longer what I'm made of
I've been changed by grace
I've been saved by love
What more do I need
....then followed by the words "He has set us free"! I am free....and alive....and determined to keep my mind of things above. My thoughts on God and His GLORY...not trying to get my own glory. What joy it is to live for the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords!
Father, you speak and it is. You spoke directly to my spirit and the words calmed me on contact. I praise you for being ever present. On guard for me when I don't even see that danger is ahead. What a life you have given me. What joy you have poured into me. I am not without because you pour yourself into those empty places of my heart and make me full! I praise you, I am amazed by you, and I am so grateful that you chose to act quickly on my behalf last night. Oh how it renews me and draws me in! You are everything that I need and I am yours....so use me!