All for me, All for you

DOWNHERE - How Many Kings

Follow the star to a place unexpected
Would you believe after all we’ve projected
A child in a manger

Lowly and small, the weakest of all
Unlikeliness hero, wrapped in his mothers shawl
Just a child
Is this who we’ve waited for?

Cause how many kings,

stepped down from their thrones?

How many lords have abandoned their homes?

How many greats have become the least for me?

How many Gods have poured out their hearts

To romance a world that has torn all apart?

How many fathers gave up their sons for me?

Bringing our gifts for the newborn savior
All that we have whether costly or meek
Because we believe
Gold for his honor and frankincense for his pleasure
And myrrh for the cross he’ll suffer
Do you believe, is this who we’ve waited for?
It’s who we’ve waited for

How many kings, stepped down from their thrones?
How many lords have abandoned their homes?
How many greats have become the least for me?
How many Gods have poured out their hearts
To romance a world that has torn all apart?
How many fathers gave up their sons for me?
Only one did that for me

All for me
All for you
All for me
All for you

Oh Father, between being sick, lack of energy, and a portion of being burnt out.........I just confess to you and all reading that I need YOU! I need you Lord. My prayer life has suffered this week, every moment I spent in bible study my mind was in a million places and my hunger was not for your word but for the couch. I miss being with you and yesterday was the first time in a while that being in your presence brought hope and joy.....not distraction and guilt. Today I am overwhelmed with the way You love me. How many kings would die for me.........how many would actually become the least of these for me.

So I say to you Father, "I will exalt you, O LORD, for you LIFTED ME OUT OF THE DEPTHS and did NOT let my enemies gloat over me. O Lord my God, I called to you for help and you HEALED ME! O Lord, you brought me up from the grave; you spared me from going down in the pit. Sing to the Lord, you saints of His; praise His Holy Name. For His anger lasts ONLY A MOMENT, BUT HIS FAVOR LASTS A LIFETIME!!!! Weeping may remain for a night but REJOICING COMES IN THE MORNING! When I felt secure, I said, "I Will never be shaken." O Lord, when you favored me, you made my mountain stand firm; but when you hid your face, I was dismayed. To You, O Lord, I called; to the Lord I cried for mercy; "What gain is there in my destruction, in my going down into the pit? Will the dust praise you? Will it proclaim your faithfulness? Hear, O Lord, and be merciful to me; O Lord, be MY HELP.".........YOU TURNED MY WAILING INTO DANCING; YOU REMOVED MY SACKCLOTH AND CLOTHED ME WITH J-O-Y, THAT MY HEART MAY SING TO YOU AND NOT BE SILENT. O LORD MY GOD, I WILL GIVE YOU THANKS FOREVER." Psalm 30

Father, I am not ok with being like every body else. You have not called us to look like the world and every time I have a week where my relationship with you looks like that of a non-believer I just want to throw up. I don't want to be cool and I don't want to be liked by everyone, I don't want to fit in with the world, I don't want to look like what the world says I need to look like, and I don't care a thing about just living life for me. I am disgusted with the way I treated you this week. As if spending time with you was doing you a favor....oh Father I am so sorry. Continue to make me different, continue to push me to change. Help me to live like I serve the RISEN KING. That I serve a Father that let His son be beaten so that I can live in eternity. Help me to live today clothed in you and covering up all my earthly ugliness. I belong to YOU! I am clothed with joy because of Your love for me so now help me to remember that. Forgive me for not taking the responsibilities you have given me seriously this week. Forgive me for my lack of praying and for my lack of hunger to be with you. It does not make me happy......it makes me empty. The fullness of you is what makes me truly happy. Thank you, that every time this week I wanted to just run away from it all you put this very song on the radio....5 times to be exact........only one did that for me, only one has set me free, and only one loves me enough that He gave up his son so that I might live. Oh Lord how selfish and lazy I have been this week. Forgive me for not still worshiping you despite my condition.

Now, I ask in Jesus Name that you shut out all the outside distractions that hound me. Increase my prayer load this week and give me a new hunger for studying. I praise you Father for listening to me and forgiving me...despite of all I do. Thank you that I can just confess all my feelings...ugly and good...and you listen and you love on me anyway. You are my best friend and I did not Honor you this week with my time or my devotion. So Father, I ask that every step I take and every direction that my head turns that you would give me opportunities for praying on sight, within sight. Increase my prayer life. Increase my bible reading time. Put a bad taste in my mouth every time I want to short change you of the time you deserve. For You are Holy and Worthy of all My Praise. So help me to magnify and honor you in the way you deserve this week. For you are MY KING that gave up everything for me! I love you so! amen.

"This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.

If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word has no place in our lives".

1 John 1: 1-10