One week ago..long
I have lost all writing ability for this week. The Lord has not been interested in me writing for Him and so I don't have a clue about what I need to share and what needs to remain between He and I. I hate weeks like this because I have been so desperate each evening to sit down and share with you about my weekend and more importantly what I have been learning this week. But all the things going on in the heart and head seem to have absolutely no interest in coming out. Crazy I know. But what else is new......oh i got my hair cut yesterday.......it had been 6 Months......my ends were soooooooooooooooooooooo dead. just thought you might want to know hahahaha.
Ok, back to the weekend. Lord, just share what you want.
So I have decided to just sum up what we did together and leave the deep stuff till He blesses it to be shared. My date weekend started with this........
and a big fat burger from Backyard Burger.....oh my...I was like "Lord I have never tasted a burger this good. Great choice!!!" hahahhhah. Then I headed home. I had been really debating about doing Esther. I really wanted to, but I felt like I might need to do another study. So last thurs evening I started it with the intro session and within minutes Beth had said 3 very important things that were on my heart. I just started crying and then laughing because I new God fully intended for this study to be apart of my next session of life. Oh, I enjoyed it so much. I love an in depth bible study. There is nothing like it. I love the work and I love all the reading and I love all the hard questions and I love getting all the juicy info about the Word.
By the end of the first session I was just talking 90 miles an hour to God. Why had I not wanted to do this study and why had I not been listening 3 weeks ago...... anyway, I was overjoyed and was in bed by 8:30 hahahah and Father and I had some GREAT pillow talk that night. I just couldn't get enough about the things He was telling me and showing me within a few hours.
I did not get up on friday morning till 8:30.......................i slept seriously 12 hours..WOW i know. But it was THE BEST NIGHT OF SLEEP I HAVE HAD IN WEEKS!!!!! Before I was even out of bed I could feel the Holy Spirit telling me that the morning would be about CLEANING UP.....then THROWING OUT.
That is exactly what I did after a nice breakfast and my quiet time. I was a machine...........WONDER WOMAN sounds better but friends, I have honestly never EVER cleaned like I did last Friday. without all the N-O-I-S-E in my life it was AMAZING WHAT COULD GET DONE!!!!!!!! I so enjoyed the silence and it was sooooo freeing to not have to worry about missing a call or email. At one point He let me put on a instrumental cd..."Dino" and listen while I cleaned. Dino is my mom's FAVORITE and I think it is ok but I had spent so much time in silence that IT WAS THE BEST INSTRUMENTAL HYMN MUSIC I HAVE EVER HEARD!!!! You should have seen me....I was dancing and was sliding across my tile floor and at one point I even pretended that I was the director.......maybe a low point but oh the music just moved through my soul and I kept getting tickled at myself! A few hours later the house was PERFECT..............i know, can you believe i just said that...but girls it was. Oh the Holy Spirit cleaning the House through us is AMAZING!!!!!! AMAZING! I could eat off the floors and not one single thing was in my laundry baskets.
Then the music went off and it was time to get rid of junk. See the theme here.......clean up and then get rid of things that clutter our lives. So that is what I did and by the time I jumped in the shower I felt like I had 50 lbs lifted off of me. It was just glorious!
I spent the afternoon at the park walking all over it and then the streets of Waxahachie. It was the best walk I have ever taken. I'm sure you beginning to pick up on the fact that all my SENSES were really heightened...........that word doesn't even begin to explain what the Lord did for me last weekend. EVERYTHING REALLY WAS THE BEST EVER FOR ME!!!! Ever smell, sight, touch, sound was turned up a million notches. I walked by a tree and could hardly keep myself from hugging it.....IT SMELLED AMAZING! I have no idea why but man oh man it was a fragrance that I had never encountered. And at sonic that evening, i ordered a diet cherry coke.........DIET.......i hate anything diet and all of the sudden I was in love and wishing I had ordered two. It was crazy.
That evening was probably my most important time with the Lord. He took the time to remind me of the promises He has made me and what I mean to Him. Many might think that a weekend alone without a phone or tv or people would be even lonelier.....but I did not feel alone or lonely for one single moment. By Saturday I was asking some really hard questions like "how could I ever get married and let someone in because I have you and that is enough....". I know that seems crazy because I do want to be married but I depend so much on Father as a single and I was confused about how I would shift some of those things to my husband as he becomes my earthly protector and provider. I think most people think the opposite way. They get married and can depend of hubby but have a hard time depending of God first. Anyway, the convo was a long one and by the end of it I was completely humbled before the God we serve.
You see, all my senses that were all over the place on Thurs and Friday was because God turned them up. Nothing I could have done on earth could have made every taste, every sound, every touch, every sight be as wonderful as what I experienced. Nothing. He did that for me. Part of my date with Him was to really enjoy everything around me. To see Him in it all. To understand the tree that I thought smelled amazing has been there everyday that I walk that path. I just never smelled it till God opened my nose. So on Sat night it became very clear to me that all my thoughts of not understanding how my relationship with the person I marry and my God will play out was cleared up by Him simply saying..."fear not, for I will turn up your level of Love so that there is plenty for him and Me". He gives us what we need. The GREAT PROVIDER. I needed to getaway with Him and He provided. He settled some things in me that needed to be dealt with and He put this new level of love in me this week that has just spilled out all over my students at school. Proving to me and increasing my faith that there is room for so much more love within us than we think or imagine. I don't know if I am making sense but if we need something then when need to just ask. Do you know what I mean? Need to be set free from something....just ask. Need to be healed...then get on the knees and ask. There is NO LIMIT TO WHAT OUR GOD CAN DO! There is no limit to what He will do in us or through us to increase a relationship with Him. There is no limit to the mighty power He can do through us for others.
That is what makes being a believer so amazing. It is not based on what I do for the Lord but what He can do through me....what He did for me and my salvation. He answers our questions in His time and He leads us on the safe path. He warns us when we are near danger and lets us see Him in the small things. Oh it was a good weekend. Laughter, tears, a lot of walking, and a lot of silence so that I could hear Him speak. I am grateful for the privilege and I hope I never forget how wonderful it was to really experience all the senses that were created by HIM alone.....I just know Heaven will be a million times better that that!!!! I can hardly wait!
Oh You, You, You rock my world Lord. What a fun time I had with you singing in the den. I can hardly stop laughing now and when I ran into the door..hahahaha oh I know you were laughing BIG TIME in Heaven. You are a blast. Not only my friend but my King. You tell me to be quiet, and you tell me to be strong, you sing with me and laugh with me and discipline me when I am wrong. hahahahh i just wrote that and it sounds like a song hahahha. You are so funny Father. hahhaha I know some will read this and think I am crazy but You take me on the BEST DATES. You open me up to new ideas and new sights. You make me feel like a million bucks and you teach me things about your word that make me feel special. I love you. I love you even when I am sulking in my lonely feelings. You never change and I am so thankful that you and only you are my constant! Now I ask in Jesus Name for you to take somebody else out on a date. Someone reading this that thinks I'm crazy because they have never experienced that side of you. What fun it is! So invite them Lord! Thank You for loving me and showing me you love me! I give you ALL Glory and Honor and Praise!
Ok, back to the weekend. Lord, just share what you want.So I have decided to just sum up what we did together and leave the deep stuff till He blesses it to be shared. My date weekend started with this........
and a big fat burger from Backyard Burger.....oh my...I was like "Lord I have never tasted a burger this good. Great choice!!!" hahahhhah. Then I headed home. I had been really debating about doing Esther. I really wanted to, but I felt like I might need to do another study. So last thurs evening I started it with the intro session and within minutes Beth had said 3 very important things that were on my heart. I just started crying and then laughing because I new God fully intended for this study to be apart of my next session of life. Oh, I enjoyed it so much. I love an in depth bible study. There is nothing like it. I love the work and I love all the reading and I love all the hard questions and I love getting all the juicy info about the Word.By the end of the first session I was just talking 90 miles an hour to God. Why had I not wanted to do this study and why had I not been listening 3 weeks ago...... anyway, I was overjoyed and was in bed by 8:30 hahahah and Father and I had some GREAT pillow talk that night. I just couldn't get enough about the things He was telling me and showing me within a few hours.
I did not get up on friday morning till 8:30.......................i slept seriously 12 hours..WOW i know. But it was THE BEST NIGHT OF SLEEP I HAVE HAD IN WEEKS!!!!! Before I was even out of bed I could feel the Holy Spirit telling me that the morning would be about CLEANING UP.....then THROWING OUT.
That is exactly what I did after a nice breakfast and my quiet time. I was a machine...........WONDER WOMAN sounds better but friends, I have honestly never EVER cleaned like I did last Friday. without all the N-O-I-S-E in my life it was AMAZING WHAT COULD GET DONE!!!!!!!! I so enjoyed the silence and it was sooooo freeing to not have to worry about missing a call or email. At one point He let me put on a instrumental cd..."Dino" and listen while I cleaned. Dino is my mom's FAVORITE and I think it is ok but I had spent so much time in silence that IT WAS THE BEST INSTRUMENTAL HYMN MUSIC I HAVE EVER HEARD!!!! You should have seen me....I was dancing and was sliding across my tile floor and at one point I even pretended that I was the director.......maybe a low point but oh the music just moved through my soul and I kept getting tickled at myself! A few hours later the house was PERFECT..............i know, can you believe i just said that...but girls it was. Oh the Holy Spirit cleaning the House through us is AMAZING!!!!!! AMAZING! I could eat off the floors and not one single thing was in my laundry baskets.
Then the music went off and it was time to get rid of junk. See the theme here.......clean up and then get rid of things that clutter our lives. So that is what I did and by the time I jumped in the shower I felt like I had 50 lbs lifted off of me. It was just glorious!
I spent the afternoon at the park walking all over it and then the streets of Waxahachie. It was the best walk I have ever taken. I'm sure you beginning to pick up on the fact that all my SENSES were really heightened...........that word doesn't even begin to explain what the Lord did for me last weekend. EVERYTHING REALLY WAS THE BEST EVER FOR ME!!!! Ever smell, sight, touch, sound was turned up a million notches. I walked by a tree and could hardly keep myself from hugging it.....IT SMELLED AMAZING! I have no idea why but man oh man it was a fragrance that I had never encountered. And at sonic that evening, i ordered a diet cherry coke.........DIET.......i hate anything diet and all of the sudden I was in love and wishing I had ordered two. It was crazy.
That evening was probably my most important time with the Lord. He took the time to remind me of the promises He has made me and what I mean to Him. Many might think that a weekend alone without a phone or tv or people would be even lonelier.....but I did not feel alone or lonely for one single moment. By Saturday I was asking some really hard questions like "how could I ever get married and let someone in because I have you and that is enough....". I know that seems crazy because I do want to be married but I depend so much on Father as a single and I was confused about how I would shift some of those things to my husband as he becomes my earthly protector and provider. I think most people think the opposite way. They get married and can depend of hubby but have a hard time depending of God first. Anyway, the convo was a long one and by the end of it I was completely humbled before the God we serve.
You see, all my senses that were all over the place on Thurs and Friday was because God turned them up. Nothing I could have done on earth could have made every taste, every sound, every touch, every sight be as wonderful as what I experienced. Nothing. He did that for me. Part of my date with Him was to really enjoy everything around me. To see Him in it all. To understand the tree that I thought smelled amazing has been there everyday that I walk that path. I just never smelled it till God opened my nose. So on Sat night it became very clear to me that all my thoughts of not understanding how my relationship with the person I marry and my God will play out was cleared up by Him simply saying..."fear not, for I will turn up your level of Love so that there is plenty for him and Me". He gives us what we need. The GREAT PROVIDER. I needed to getaway with Him and He provided. He settled some things in me that needed to be dealt with and He put this new level of love in me this week that has just spilled out all over my students at school. Proving to me and increasing my faith that there is room for so much more love within us than we think or imagine. I don't know if I am making sense but if we need something then when need to just ask. Do you know what I mean? Need to be set free from something....just ask. Need to be healed...then get on the knees and ask. There is NO LIMIT TO WHAT OUR GOD CAN DO! There is no limit to what He will do in us or through us to increase a relationship with Him. There is no limit to the mighty power He can do through us for others.
That is what makes being a believer so amazing. It is not based on what I do for the Lord but what He can do through me....what He did for me and my salvation. He answers our questions in His time and He leads us on the safe path. He warns us when we are near danger and lets us see Him in the small things. Oh it was a good weekend. Laughter, tears, a lot of walking, and a lot of silence so that I could hear Him speak. I am grateful for the privilege and I hope I never forget how wonderful it was to really experience all the senses that were created by HIM alone.....I just know Heaven will be a million times better that that!!!! I can hardly wait!
Oh You, You, You rock my world Lord. What a fun time I had with you singing in the den. I can hardly stop laughing now and when I ran into the door..hahahaha oh I know you were laughing BIG TIME in Heaven. You are a blast. Not only my friend but my King. You tell me to be quiet, and you tell me to be strong, you sing with me and laugh with me and discipline me when I am wrong. hahahahh i just wrote that and it sounds like a song hahahha. You are so funny Father. hahhaha I know some will read this and think I am crazy but You take me on the BEST DATES. You open me up to new ideas and new sights. You make me feel like a million bucks and you teach me things about your word that make me feel special. I love you. I love you even when I am sulking in my lonely feelings. You never change and I am so thankful that you and only you are my constant! Now I ask in Jesus Name for you to take somebody else out on a date. Someone reading this that thinks I'm crazy because they have never experienced that side of you. What fun it is! So invite them Lord! Thank You for loving me and showing me you love me! I give you ALL Glory and Honor and Praise!