Much
What do you consider "Much"?Is it for everyone or does "much" only apply to some believers? Because I think at one time in my life I might have looked at this verse and thought that God was speaking in money terms....or fame. That "those set-apart people" had been given much and so much will be demanded of "them"......not really me. I think that would possibly be some past thinking of many people too.
One week ago today, this verse was given to me during my quiet time. It has stalked me since. During the morning and afternoon drives to school I have been talking the verse out and repeating the words over and over. Much....the word "much" really bothered me. What the heck is considered "much". Then when I looked up the Hebrew meaning and saw that one definition said that the words address having "ENOUGH, Sufficient"....... those words I got. I get what it means to have enough. The question that is really in my mind is do we all, believers in Jesus Christ, know that because we have been given enough or MUCH....then Much is demanded of us?
That is the question. Do I act like I have been given much? Do I really get that this verse has nothing to do with earthly possessions but EVERYTHING TO DO WITH SPIRITUAL GIFTS AND FRUITS OF THE SPIRIT..........loving and ACTIVELY PURSUING GOD!!!!! This verse is not exclusive at all. I have received the free gift of Salvation when I asked the Lord to be my very own. Salvation alone is considered "Much" right? Y-E-S!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Does this verse make you nervous? The more and more I study it, the more I realize that I absolutely love the great responsibility that this verse it talking about. I like knowing that I am considered to be entrusted with much and because of that, much will be asked of me. I want God to look down and search for someone to do a particular job and say..."Caroline.........she is dependable, she wants to bring me Glory, I trust her to obey my instructions". That is what I long for. I want to be used of God greatly for His Glory. I want to use the spiritual gifts that He has given me, for this season, constantly till He moves me on to something else. I want to pray with a sense of urgency for Him to work through me and others. I like knowing that God expects BIG THINGS OF ME. This might seem crazy but I have always lived better serving God under pretty tight boundaries. Just something He has always done for me....and it works best for my personality. I find great comfort in knowing that He is entrusting me with a great deal. Something about that just makes me want to pursue Him more. To know His Word more. I want to be ready when the task at hand is presented to me. I want Him to see that I long to serve Him and that I will obey Him.
I am sharing this because I WANT TO LIVE OUT THIS VERSE FULLY. "MUCH" doesn't mean anything really. No one is disqualified from obeying this scripture because God has given us internal life....if we are His. We all have enough. I just want to start living more that way. I wonder what adventure is to come when I am finally saying this verse every morning with a joyful heart to serve Him that day. That is what I desire. That is what I want you to have. We are different. We are set-apart because we bare His Name. So lets stop stepping back from something/everything that clearly has God's name all over it......and just start giving HIM all the GLORY HE DESERVES! To start acting like we belong to Him and to start getting excited that He wants to use us in BIG WAYS!
Lord this post does not make sense and it it the 3rd time to write it. I know you want me to post it tonight but I just do not have peace that it is organized for them to understand. So I just ask for your mercy on it....and their eyes. I am so overwhelmed that during the past 3 days of writing this, YOU continued to have people email me with great words of encouragement. Every word I read made me want to serve you more. Just like this verse is saying. This blog, for this season of life, is a responsibility you have given me. I thank You that you trust me to deliver what it is You want said. You expect much from me. I love that, Father. I love knowing that I am considered so important to You........important to the work You are doing. That feeling is like nothing else. You continue to speak so tenderly to me..even when I am such a brat and don't want to write. I love you! I have everything that I could possibly need this very second and so I choose to not waste my life hoarding it but asking you to just wear me out with Your great plans! Use me........ Oh how I would be honored!