With Me
So it is early in the morning....friday...and I am at school. Normally I would not blog here, but what happened last night while I was going to sleep....... must be written down.
I have been in need of a word about something from someone. Maybe I need to say that I need to hear something..........but it just isn't happening. Now, I personally think that I am a patient person most of the time......if I am filled with the spirit....but if I am not then I tend to get bent out of shape when something doesn't happen when I think it should happen. ha! I know that last sentence makes Father laugh! Anyway, I have been waiting to hear and it is taking a long time this week. On Thursday morning I woke up with a calmness all over me about the situation. Had a wonderful day at work and came home to clean house....dixie and george are staying the night tonight. By the time I crawled in bed I was so tired. But because I had spent the first part of the week CRAZY to hear something......I had a bunch of built up tension and tears that just needed to get out.
So I put my ear-plugs in, because I think i HAVE TO HAVE THEM TO SLEEP..probably not, and got comfy in bed. Almost 2 seconds later I just needed to talk it all out with God. I started saying..very loudly since my ears were plugged ..."I NEED YOU TO COMFORT ME"......"COMFORT ME"...over and over I said it. "comfort me God, i need to feel you". Then it went to "your word Father, give me a verse, give me a verse to cling to right now.............Father bring to mind your word". But absolutely no verses were coming to me. Not even ones that I know by heart. So I just kept asking over and over for comfort. "comfort me God." Then I started in on "Father, Son, Holy Spirit....give me something".............."I need your word"............."wake up, wake up three in one i need you"..............................nothing. I laid there in silence after my pleading. And then it happened.
"Lo, I am with you always".........
The words fell on my heart so quickly. I repeated what had just played through my mind. "Lo, I am with you always"........i knew i hadn't thought it, my mind was just blank. I repeated the words again, again, and again. The more I said them, the more my entire body relaxed. The more my body relaxed, the more my mind and heart began to comprehend that the "I" in "I am with you always" was God and He was speaking straight to me. This was no visual in the sky, or a verse about what I am dealing with.....NO, IT WAS GOD SPEAKING DIRECTLY TO ME... THAT HE HAD HEARD MY CRY FOR COMFORT AND HAD TURNED HIS EAR TO ME. "I am with you always".......I began to break into the ugly cry and just sobbed while I said "I LOVE YOU LORD" over and over and over again. "I love you Lord".....The crying deepened because I believe He then allowed me to realize that I have been waiting all week to hear something from someone....and it just isn't coming......BUT when I call on HIM........HE WILL ANSWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh to God be the Glory!
My crying turned in to hilarious laughing....i just couldn't stop. I'M NOT JOKING! I can never get over how amazing it is to speak with God. I just can't. It rocks my world every time. That He would speak so tenderly and straight to me just blows my mind. I just couldn't stop laughing. What joy then filled me. Pure joy and I just kept saying "I love you Lord".
Then I just stopped.........it was so strange. I went from crying really hard to laughing so loud and for a long time to just nothing. I was calm and felt comforted.........then fell asleep. Oh, what a night!
He is the love of my life. Do you know what I mean. My need to hear something from somebody will never ever be as amazing as encountering God. I spent several days this week thinking that this earthly person could bring me some joy by speaking something to me but the truth is that my God can only really bring me deep, pure, laughing like crazy joy! Oh He knows me. Really and deeply knows everything about me. I would have fallen asleep last night with or without my encounter with Him. But Father is so relational. He wants to blow us away with His mighty grace, you know! Anyway, i could talk all day about this but I know you get my point. I am so grateful that I speak and He hears me. He is not some big God that has little time for us. HE IS ALL ABOUT TIME WITH US! I am so thankful to have Him speak to me!
Father you are everything to me. You love me just the way I need to be loved. You know what my heart needs to hear......what I have been needing to hear all week. I just can't explain it with words how much joy you have filled me with. You are with me always! Thank you!
love you all...have a wonderful weekend!
I have been in need of a word about something from someone. Maybe I need to say that I need to hear something..........but it just isn't happening. Now, I personally think that I am a patient person most of the time......if I am filled with the spirit....but if I am not then I tend to get bent out of shape when something doesn't happen when I think it should happen. ha! I know that last sentence makes Father laugh! Anyway, I have been waiting to hear and it is taking a long time this week. On Thursday morning I woke up with a calmness all over me about the situation. Had a wonderful day at work and came home to clean house....dixie and george are staying the night tonight. By the time I crawled in bed I was so tired. But because I had spent the first part of the week CRAZY to hear something......I had a bunch of built up tension and tears that just needed to get out.
So I put my ear-plugs in, because I think i HAVE TO HAVE THEM TO SLEEP..probably not, and got comfy in bed. Almost 2 seconds later I just needed to talk it all out with God. I started saying..very loudly since my ears were plugged ..."I NEED YOU TO COMFORT ME"......"COMFORT ME"...over and over I said it. "comfort me God, i need to feel you". Then it went to "your word Father, give me a verse, give me a verse to cling to right now.............Father bring to mind your word". But absolutely no verses were coming to me. Not even ones that I know by heart. So I just kept asking over and over for comfort. "comfort me God." Then I started in on "Father, Son, Holy Spirit....give me something".............."I need your word"............."wake up, wake up three in one i need you"..............................nothing. I laid there in silence after my pleading. And then it happened.
"Lo, I am with you always".........
The words fell on my heart so quickly. I repeated what had just played through my mind. "Lo, I am with you always"........i knew i hadn't thought it, my mind was just blank. I repeated the words again, again, and again. The more I said them, the more my entire body relaxed. The more my body relaxed, the more my mind and heart began to comprehend that the "I" in "I am with you always" was God and He was speaking straight to me. This was no visual in the sky, or a verse about what I am dealing with.....NO, IT WAS GOD SPEAKING DIRECTLY TO ME... THAT HE HAD HEARD MY CRY FOR COMFORT AND HAD TURNED HIS EAR TO ME. "I am with you always".......I began to break into the ugly cry and just sobbed while I said "I LOVE YOU LORD" over and over and over again. "I love you Lord".....The crying deepened because I believe He then allowed me to realize that I have been waiting all week to hear something from someone....and it just isn't coming......BUT when I call on HIM........HE WILL ANSWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh to God be the Glory!
My crying turned in to hilarious laughing....i just couldn't stop. I'M NOT JOKING! I can never get over how amazing it is to speak with God. I just can't. It rocks my world every time. That He would speak so tenderly and straight to me just blows my mind. I just couldn't stop laughing. What joy then filled me. Pure joy and I just kept saying "I love you Lord".
Then I just stopped.........it was so strange. I went from crying really hard to laughing so loud and for a long time to just nothing. I was calm and felt comforted.........then fell asleep. Oh, what a night!
He is the love of my life. Do you know what I mean. My need to hear something from somebody will never ever be as amazing as encountering God. I spent several days this week thinking that this earthly person could bring me some joy by speaking something to me but the truth is that my God can only really bring me deep, pure, laughing like crazy joy! Oh He knows me. Really and deeply knows everything about me. I would have fallen asleep last night with or without my encounter with Him. But Father is so relational. He wants to blow us away with His mighty grace, you know! Anyway, i could talk all day about this but I know you get my point. I am so grateful that I speak and He hears me. He is not some big God that has little time for us. HE IS ALL ABOUT TIME WITH US! I am so thankful to have Him speak to me!
Father you are everything to me. You love me just the way I need to be loved. You know what my heart needs to hear......what I have been needing to hear all week. I just can't explain it with words how much joy you have filled me with. You are with me always! Thank you!
love you all...have a wonderful weekend!