I JOINED
But.....today I have been given the go to share that I joined First Baptist Church today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YEAH FOR A HOME CHURCH!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAAAAAAA FOR FAMILY AND FELLOWSHIP!!!!!!!!! They were so wonderful to me and all the older people giving me kisses and stuff. I just loved it. I had on my yellow coat and black Capri's with shoes and they said i looked like Doris Day! SO sweet.....cause I LOVE DORIS DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
Two of the choir ladies said they heard I wanted to join the choir and this Saturday the new choir director is having a practice with all old and new members!!!!! SO I WILL GO!!!!!! I can't wait.
There was something interesting that happened in Sunday school. There is a lot of baggage in the room. I love that they are faithful to come anyway, since so many people stop going when life starts to fall apart. I have always been in a class with people my age and many from the same background. This S.school class is nothing like that. Today I saw the hurt first hand. One older man that has a history of drugs and alcohol...but now sober....became irate with the fact that God still excepts Christians into heaven even if they lived a life of full sin on earth. He could not understand that a christian could be overtake by sin and still be a believer. I was like "oh friend, I have been in full sin......sin that was all over me.....and God rescued me from that.....but I am still a believer, I don't have to go back and pray the prayer again......I AM HIS, I WAS HIS IN THE SIN and NOTHING CAN SEPARATE ME FROM THE HANDS OF GOD."
He didn't want to hear it. See God has forgiven him but he hasn't forgiven himself......so he thinks "works" will do the trick........and that he is the one person God will not show grace to. My heart aches for this man. God is not complicated when it comes to who He loves. He loves us all. He will take us back or take us for the first time....JUST AS WE ARE.
"God saved you by HIS special favor when you believed. And you can't take credit for this; it is a gift from God. Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done, so none of us can boast about it." Eph 2.8-9 (NLT)
He yelled and ran out of the room. I sat in shock at how ugly he had been to our teacher. I have never experience anything like that before. The lesson was all on salvation and satan had a very clear plan today to get us all upset so that we would not focus on God's truth. HE WAS NOT SUCCESSFUL!!!!!!! TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!!!!!!!
"He saved us, not because of the good things we did, but because of HIS MERCY. He washed away our sins and gave us a new life through the Holy Spirit." titus 3.5
I am really praying for this man this afternoon. I want him to know freedom and to really know God. Our God is for us! He is.......he makes all things beautiful........every ugly part of us...He can turn it upside down, wash it out, shine it up, and let is sparkle!
"To open their eyes and turn them from darkness to light, and from the power of satan to GOD, so that they may receive forgiveness of sins and a place among those who are sanctified by faith in me." Acts 26.18
I am not at this church by accident. I can already see how Father wants me to minister to others there. I can already see that things I learned the last few months at my old church were all things that prepared me to serve here. Oh how i desire for people to "get it" to "accept it" and to learn how good it is to just let our Saviour lead! Would you not agree that following God is such FREEDOM????????????? IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I long for people to know God, like I know God! To experience Him and to love being with Him! But most of all I want them to receive the gift of salvation......and to have Faith that it is real!