I'm the one who's loved you all your life............
I don't know if my words will make sense this evening because as hard as it is for many of you to believe...... I don't write about everything going on in my life or what the Lord is sharing with me...but today i must share...but i don't know if I can make it make sense.
I am a hopeless romantic.....always have been. And far to tender hearted for my own good. I really think those two things go hand in hand! I love ,LOVE!!!!!! I love loving people! I love a good love story, I love tender moments between husbands and wives....and tender moments between parents and children. I say what I am feeling. If I love you....then i tell you! If I miss you....then I say so! If I need you to give me a hug.....then I simply ask! I do not with-hold love or deny receiving love! I give words of affirmation and I need words of affirmation.
So last night I was in bed and crying about something that Father has asked me to give up as of yesterday........and of course....... I did not want to do it. Still don't want to....but did. I was crying like a baby until I really felt the Holy Spirit say something to me that was most profound. Once the words were spoken I simple said them aloud...."You are in my way". Now my tender heart could hardly hear it. I really think at that point my crying went to weeping. I would never intentionally been so disobedient that He would have to tell me that I was in His way. The funny thing about the 5 words that I heard, was that they were said to me so matter of fact...because He knows I love honesty......but they were also loving! I can't explain it well, I just don't have the words. But His words were clear, understood, and even brought me relief! By the time I fell asleep He was at work renewing my trust and strengthening my ability to let things go and let Him work.
What does this have to do with being a hopeless romantic? Well my God designed everything about me! He knows exactly what I need at all times. Don't believe me????? You remember two weeks ago when He took me on a date walk...with two rainbows? Oh yes, He knows......
At school this morning my heart was a little down from the events last night. During a break I read my Journey for today. The title was "Rerouted Dreams" and the verse was... "If anyone wants to come WITH ME, he must deny himself, take up his cross, and FOLLOW ME." Matt 16.24
HE WAS SO TALKING STRAIGHT TO ME!!!!!!!!!. At the end the writer stated....."Our dreams are only a fraction of the picture He has, and His insight into our hearts and minds is far greater than our own insight about ourselves. He wants to fulfill our deepest desires- some of which we may not be consciously aware....." The prayer then said..."sometimes I mourn the loss of my dreams, and each time You've brought me to a greater understanding of Your plan. Thank you for knowing me so intimately, and thank you for having larger dreams for me than I have for myself." This may sound silly but I felt like it was almost a love letter to me from Him.........that He was reminding me that what He had to take away from me last night, He will provide something much better! A reminder that I can't see ahead but He can. TRUST!
That was in the morning. At about 1pm, as the kids were in the middle of their drawing test, the song "You're Not Alone" by Meredith Andrews began to play. Now, I love this song. I listen to it all the time. But as I walked around the room, I began to feel my heavy heart start to swallow what the song was saying.........and for the very first time the words manifested within me and I heard the HOLY SPIRIT speak directly to me yet again.........
It was the sweetest voice that called my name saying
You're not alone
for I am here
let me wipe away your every fear
My love, I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night and
I'm the one who's loved you all your life
All of your life
You're not alone
for I am here
let me wipe away your every tear
My love, I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest nights
And I'm the one who's loved you all your life
All your life
Faithful and true...
Forever
For my love will carry you.... You're not alone for I...
I am here let me wipe away every fear...
My love I've never left your side
I have seen you through your darkest night
And I'm the one who's loved you all your life
All of your life
He has loved me all my life. He calls me His "love". Oh how sweet the words just fall on me. I am His love. I am taken back by His need for me to understand, today, that He requires me to deny myself and when I am hard headed...He will be honest with me, even when it hurts to hear. But, He has loved me all my life and the hopeless romantic in me falls in love with Him all the more! I mean, Christian or not.....He has loved you all your life! Faithfully following Him and growing or NOT......He has loved you all your life! He created us, of course He always loves us! HE IS LOVE! He can't help it!!!!!!!!
I NEEDED TO KNOW THAT TODAY! I NEEDED TO HEAR HIM SAY HE LOVES ME! I NEEDED TO HEAR THOSE VERY WORDS........"Caroline, I love you"! I was in the way of His work. He was right, as always. He corrected me and then made sure that I clearly knew how much He loved me! Makes giving up that "thing" last night TOTALLY AND FOREVER WORTH IT!!!!!!!! What a love story He writes with us! The Creator of the universe loves me! No earthly love could ever compare to His love!
I am a hopeless romantic.....always have been. And far to tender hearted for my own good. I really think those two things go hand in hand! I love ,LOVE!!!!!! I love loving people! I love a good love story, I love tender moments between husbands and wives....and tender moments between parents and children. I say what I am feeling. If I love you....then i tell you! If I miss you....then I say so! If I need you to give me a hug.....then I simply ask! I do not with-hold love or deny receiving love! I give words of affirmation and I need words of affirmation.
So last night I was in bed and crying about something that Father has asked me to give up as of yesterday........and of course....... I did not want to do it. Still don't want to....but did. I was crying like a baby until I really felt the Holy Spirit say something to me that was most profound. Once the words were spoken I simple said them aloud...."You are in my way". Now my tender heart could hardly hear it. I really think at that point my crying went to weeping. I would never intentionally been so disobedient that He would have to tell me that I was in His way. The funny thing about the 5 words that I heard, was that they were said to me so matter of fact...because He knows I love honesty......but they were also loving! I can't explain it well, I just don't have the words. But His words were clear, understood, and even brought me relief! By the time I fell asleep He was at work renewing my trust and strengthening my ability to let things go and let Him work.
What does this have to do with being a hopeless romantic? Well my God designed everything about me! He knows exactly what I need at all times. Don't believe me????? You remember two weeks ago when He took me on a date walk...with two rainbows? Oh yes, He knows......
At school this morning my heart was a little down from the events last night. During a break I read my Journey for today. The title was "Rerouted Dreams" and the verse was... "If anyone wants to come WITH ME, he must deny himself, take up his cross, and FOLLOW ME." Matt 16.24
HE WAS SO TALKING STRAIGHT TO ME!!!!!!!!!. At the end the writer stated....."Our dreams are only a fraction of the picture He has, and His insight into our hearts and minds is far greater than our own insight about ourselves. He wants to fulfill our deepest desires- some of which we may not be consciously aware....." The prayer then said..."sometimes I mourn the loss of my dreams, and each time You've brought me to a greater understanding of Your plan. Thank you for knowing me so intimately, and thank you for having larger dreams for me than I have for myself." This may sound silly but I felt like it was almost a love letter to me from Him.........that He was reminding me that what He had to take away from me last night, He will provide something much better! A reminder that I can't see ahead but He can. TRUST!
That was in the morning. At about 1pm, as the kids were in the middle of their drawing test, the song "You're Not Alone" by Meredith Andrews began to play. Now, I love this song. I listen to it all the time. But as I walked around the room, I began to feel my heavy heart start to swallow what the song was saying.........and for the very first time the words manifested within me and I heard the HOLY SPIRIT speak directly to me yet again.........
It was the sweetest voice that called my name saying
You're not alone
for I am here
let me wipe away your every fear
My love, I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night and
I'm the one who's loved you all your life
All of your life
You're not alone
for I am here
let me wipe away your every tear
My love, I've never left your side
I have seen you through the darkest nights
And I'm the one who's loved you all your life
All your life
Faithful and true...
Forever
For my love will carry you.... You're not alone for I...
I am here let me wipe away every fear...
My love I've never left your side
I have seen you through your darkest night
And I'm the one who's loved you all your life
All of your life
He has loved me all my life. He calls me His "love". Oh how sweet the words just fall on me. I am His love. I am taken back by His need for me to understand, today, that He requires me to deny myself and when I am hard headed...He will be honest with me, even when it hurts to hear. But, He has loved me all my life and the hopeless romantic in me falls in love with Him all the more! I mean, Christian or not.....He has loved you all your life! Faithfully following Him and growing or NOT......He has loved you all your life! He created us, of course He always loves us! HE IS LOVE! He can't help it!!!!!!!!
I NEEDED TO KNOW THAT TODAY! I NEEDED TO HEAR HIM SAY HE LOVES ME! I NEEDED TO HEAR THOSE VERY WORDS........"Caroline, I love you"! I was in the way of His work. He was right, as always. He corrected me and then made sure that I clearly knew how much He loved me! Makes giving up that "thing" last night TOTALLY AND FOREVER WORTH IT!!!!!!!! What a love story He writes with us! The Creator of the universe loves me! No earthly love could ever compare to His love!
I am my beloveds
and
my beloved is mine!