Bad Mood Day
PRAISE YOU FATHER FOR CHANGING MY BAD MOOD TO JOY!!!!! PRAISE YOU PRAISE YOU
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uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh is really all I can say today. Well not totally true. I have much to say.
1. it is dark and gloomy outside
2. i can't wake up for the life of me......even though i went to be last night at 9pm ugh
3. just now during my conference I realized that my beautiful B-I-B-L-E is on its way out. For that I am in a deeply bad mood.
about three months ago I lost Gen 1-17. see below...........
Well, since we are studying Gen. in Sunday school it has been handy to just lift it up and hold it in my hand. uuuuggggghhhhhh then 2 weeks ago i lost the rest of Genesis........
This is the source of the problem...............each section has begun to depart........
And then there was today..............my sadness has set in as Exodus has now exited my bible. boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
and the back of my bible binding leather thing is no longer attached.
and this would be a very real pic of my bad mood/sad/wish i was a home face
oh girls, i haven't had this bible for that long. My parents gave it to me when i graduated college and i honestly had no plans to get a new one till I was about to change my name and become a Mrs. something. This bible has been everywhere with me and I am sad that it is falling apart. I mean, the word is like my best friend. In these single years of my life he has really changed me through his word. I have so much of our journey together written on the pages and I can't bare the thought of starting new yet. I know all of this is silly but with my future up in the air right now with move, not move, change jobs, don't change jobs,.....new new bible.....no new bible. I know the Word of GOD is alive and active.........so a new bible shouldn't be a big deal.
BUT IT IS...........................
and having rebound cost the same as a new one. oh what do i do girls.......i am having trouble. i think i am having a spirit of fear right now. Afraid of starting something else new in my life. Ok God you know that "fear of the new" is crap. " WE BOTH KNOW I LOVE "THE NEW". For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind". This has nothing to do with my bible Lord. You are so right. I am trying to grab onto some control. Praise you for just speaking to me! Forgive me, forgive this bad attitude. You are my way, my truth, my light. I cast all my anxiety on you because you care for me. I turn my head and heart to you Father. I HATE THIS PART OF THIS JOURNEY. I AM AFRAID I WILL MAKE THE WRONG DECISION GOD. MAKE YOUR VOICE MIGHTY IN MY EARS AND IN MY HEART. OH GOD I AM OVERWHELMED WITH THESE BIG CHANGES. I CAN'T DO THIS WITHOUT YOU. I NEED YOU. ALLOW YOUR PEACE TO GOVERN ME FATHER!!!!! PLEASE FATHER, SHOW ME YOUR WILL. I fix my eyes on you Jesus, the author and protector of my faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross.......Father please speak to me!!!!!!
sorry girls....in bit of a crazy moment!!! you just got stuck in it.